up the stairs the station where the act becomes the art of growing up

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 02:41:15 GMT

this is the end of megs livejournal till further notice. its gunna b summer and im not gunna b home and shit and online journals r gettin retarded.

byebye
-meg

lets amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, i'll let animosity unwind

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 00:46:14 GMT

someone who wishes to remain nameless has requested i hit up the LJ so here i go. uhmmmmm its really hot out, but we got ac so its all good. i went to hales today it was kick ass yay awesomeness life rocks. i heart him he makes me so happy. yesterday i felt soooooooo sick migraine like a mofo. skool and end of the year shit is stressing me out but its all good its gunna b over soon. im hanging out with laura tomorrow!!!!! yay i heart her. and a shout out to vads i love her too. u no whts fuckin awesome? jackie being on step squad. shes my idol i love her. hahha whoa im feelin luvin rite now, so ill make a list of all the ppl i wanna say i heart u to to make my life easier: hale vads laura carol jess jackie fizz paulina stephers zula henry liz trombone maryellen maria betsy jamesM lindsay gracie crissie susan frizzy mike. my mom sed yes to canada with stephers, then we're going to c betsy in brattleboro, aka slutville. im gunna try to talk katie into taking us three to sixth flags. theres no stupid gay bls drama going on rite now which floats my boat, omg best fucking thing ever:

St0ugas: the sheehan made sweet love to pastore hAha
leg0 My EgGo 47: omg
leg0 My EgGo 47: shut up.
leg0 My EgGo 47: wht happened?!?!
St0ugas: lol she kissed him on the cheek =-O !!!!!!
leg0 My EgGo 47: OMG STEPHANIE I HATE U
St0ugas: hahahahahahahahhahahahahaha
lmfao steph ur the best fuckin thing since sliced bread

well i must b off this....... i love u all

<3 meg!!!!!!!

wht r u running from takin pills to get along creating walls to call ur own

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 00:31:23 GMT

like whoa. i havent written for quite the time. lemme think wht has happened since then. uhm wednesday was my hale day and it was wonderful. then thursday i chiLLed with lizzle after skola, sum1 got hit by a car in JP it was gross i felt sad, so we had to walk to forest hills from jp licks and then i went home, it started to pour, then i took a bus bak to jp to pick up kerry at lilys birthday party, then i bought her candy caz im the cool older sister like that, then friday was tricias graduation so i couldnt do nething spectacular which sucked caz i wanted to attend grace's thing really bad, but yeah that was korny and all the nuns and teachers i hadnt seen for a really long time were all like omg ur so grown up hows skool etc etc. i felt sick so i just walked home and didnt stay for the reception thing. then saturday hale came over. it was awesomeness to the extreme. we got slush. i love slush!, cept the flavor was cotton candy and idk i was never a fan of cotton candy slush. but yeah great day. then sunday i stayed in on the fone with hale all day and did homework and all that exciting shit. my computer crashed so i had to live without aim for the weekend. then today was just a regular day. took commuter rail home with hale, have no homework. its all good in mr rogers neighborhood. tomorrow i dont hafta go to skool and many of u do. ha ha. lina's partay is saturday. woop woop. altho we didnt get classic invites (lol carol). caitlin sheehans away message is "im not here... dont cry... love, the sheehan" hahahha she calls herself the sheehan. good stuff. i hafta ask my mom about canada with steph i really hope she says yes. my eyes hurt and r red and stuff. tear. lizz and henry go out. yupyup. lizzie h sent me a text sayin she got in a car accident and i was like whooaaaaa whts going on, but im assuming shes okay caz she wouldnt text me if she was dead. duh. well im bored with this now goodbye

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>meggo eggo

gotta get up i gotta get going im gunna c a friend of mine hes round and hes fuzzy i love him because hes just pooh bear winnie the pooh bear lookin for fun chasin some hunny bees poob bear i no hes out here rumblee tumblee climbing a hunny tree fun never ends for us we're so adventurous least every now and agen and wen were alone and there nobody home its nice to b able to count on a friend like pooh bear winnie the pooh bear where ever u go oh wont u take me please pooh bear i gotta b there its me and its u silly old winnie the pooh

oh its such a shame for us to part

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 01:37:03 GMT

what a kick ass day.

:):):)

float on

Mon, 31 May 2004 14:08:24 GMT

yoyoyoyo
whts shaking? i wish stephanie was home shes the only one who would b online at this hour with me. so yesterday was good. ben morris came over for awhile. it was spiffin. then me carol and the fam went to a bbq at the gillespies. but it got really boring so me and carol left and met laura and liz and went to lauras house. tht was good. then me and carol walked home and she slept over. she had to go home madd early so im lonely now. i hafta do a mr power project thing today. ugh. hopefully i can finish it fast and get out. i wish the sound on my computer would work. ghettoness. ahhh where is vads i miss her.

bye

<3eggo0o0O0o0O0O0o

survey stolen from kerin

Sun, 30 May 2004 03:03:55 GMT

X Start Time : 9:49
X Nickname :: megs meggo eggo tips gids giggle crumpet megalina megshizzlecat etc
X Birthday :: 4/7
X Current Mood :: tired but good
X Current Taste :: grapefruit juice!
X Current Clothes :: mikes cursive sweatshirt, old navy shirt, jeans
X Current Annoyance :: my tiredness
X Current Smell :: nothing
X Current Thing You Ought To Be Doing :: sleeping
X Current Desktop Picture :: sunset beach picture i stole from sheilas journal
X Current favorite band :: many
X Current CD In Stereo :: rhcp
X Current Crush :: hale
X Current Favorite Celeb :: micheal j fox
X Ever Have A Dream That Keeps Coming Back :: no
X Remember Your First Real Love :: yes
X Still Love Them :: yes
X Read The Newspaper :: no
X Have Any Gay or Lesbian Friends :: no but i have my doubts
X Believe in Miracles :: yup
X Believe It`s Possible To Remain Faithful Forever :: yea
X Consider Yourself Tolerant Of Others :: i try to b
X Consider Love a Mistake :: not at all
X Like The Taste of Alcohol :: yes, esp wen ur too drunk to notice the taste
X Believe In Astrology :: no
X Believe In Magic :: do u believe in magic in a young grls heart
X Believe In God :: sure
X Have Any Pets :: no. tear.
X Go To or Plan To Go To College :: i plan to
X Have Any Piercings :: ears
X Have Any Tattoos :: no
X Hate Yourself :: yes
X Have An Obsession :: no
X Have A Secret Crush :: its not secret
X Do They Know Yet :: i shud hope so
X Have A Best Friend :: yes more than 1
X Wish On Stars :: wen i have time to look up, which is usually in the summer
X Care About Looks :: to a certain extent a lil
X Love Life :: .......what?
X First Crush :: dont recall prolly like the red power ranger or something gay like tht
X Single or Taken :: taken
X Do You Believe In Love At First Sight :: lust
X Describe Your Ideal Significant Other :: hale

Word Association
X Rubber :: band
X Rock :: steady
X Green :: grass
X Wet :: puddle
X Cry :: tear
X Peanut :: butter
X Hay :: market, like the train stop
X Cold :: freezing
X Rain :: drop
X Bite :: overbite
X Blow :: job

Appearance
X Hair:: brownish
X Eyes :: blue
X Height :: short

Last Thing You...
X Bought :: grapefruit juice
X Ate + Drank :: uhmmmm a kit kat and grapefruit juice
X Read :: now means forever by sarah dessen

Either/Or
X Club or House Party :: uhm i dont care
X Beer or Cider :: neither
X Drinks or Shots :: drinks
X Cats or Dogs :: dogs
X Single or Taken :: taken
X Pen or Pencil :: pen
X Gloves or Mittens :: gloves
X Food or Candy :: candy
X Cassette or CD :: cd

Have You Ever
X Dated One Of Your Best Friends :: well ppl u date r sorta like ur bestest friend cept like closer.
X Drank Alcohol :: hells yeah
X Broken The Law :: yes
X Run Away From Home :: almost
X Broken A Bone :: yes
X Played Truth or Dare :: yes
X Kissed Someone You Didn`t Know :: no
X Been In a Fight :: yes
X Come Close to Dying :: no
X The Most Embarrasing CD In Your Collection :: idk
at Is Your Bedroom Like :: clean for once, blue
X Your Favorite Thing For Breakfast :: i dont eat breakfast

Last Person You...
X Talked To :: jack
X IMed :: zula
Hugged :: fizz
Kissed :: hale
Had A Serious Conversation With :: like in person? crizznazz
Yelled at :: uhmm im gunna yell at tricia for not tellin me lala called

random questions
X What`s On Your Bedside Table :: dont have one
X What Do You Eat When You Raid The Fridge Late At Night :: i dont raid the fridge late at nite
X What is Your Guaranteed Weeping Movie :: the end of the sixth sense wen he says bye to his wife makes me cry every single fucking time
X If You Could Have Plastic Surgery, What Would You Have Done :: none
X What Feature Are You Most Insecure About :: not sure
X Do You Ever Have To Beg :: no
X Are You a Pyromaniac :: i heart fire but im not like a fiend
X Do You Know Anyone Famous :: matthew brokerick is my cousin
X Describe your bed :: lots of pillows and big and comfy
X Spontaneous or Plan :: depends
X Do You Know How To Play Poker :: yes
X What Do You Carry With You At All Times :: cell fone
X How Do You Drive :: i dont
X What Do You Miss Most About Being Little :: carefreeness, always being happy
X What Color Are Your Bedroom Walls :: blue
X What Was The Last Song You Were Listening To :: scar tissue-rhcp
X Do You Like Yourself and Believe In Yourself :: no
X Do Poor, Homeless, or Starving People Sometimes Annoy You :: no they make me depressed
X Do People in General Annoy You :: sumtimes

X end time: 10:03

ive here b4 a few times, and im quite aware we're dying

Sun, 30 May 2004 02:46:28 GMT

i am sooooooo tired and headachy so this is gunna b a short one. hmmmmm so yesterday i saw shrek 2 with carol jess lina liz and laura, then they came over, the movie was fucking hilarious. then my dad was mean and embarrassed me in front of them, then me and laura took a walk and they went home, then today fizz and i went to c black tie affair and big blue etc. ppl were there it was good. i enjoyed myself. then like joe crissie me faith lizz r kerin zula mike anant evan henken kasey james will(shoot me please....) and sum ppl i dont no went out to eat at doyles. then a few of us went to mikes. then me crissie and annie stole mikes sweatshirts, mike i will give them bak since i have 2 now, and walked to alex p's house. then my mom called and was like bitch where u at (it would b mad funny if she actually sed tht), so i came home and now here i am. hales in new hampshire. tear. i talked to mellen about shit last nite and we're not hating on each other nemore, tht i no of, so thts chill. im drinking grapefruit juice. yum.

<3m.

Fri, 28 May 2004 00:36:55 GMT

i feel better now after that spaz. yup

Thu, 27 May 2004 23:27:15 GMT

okay. i am going to spaz. like drama has hit full force. name one dramatic or bad thing tht could happen and it would most likely b happeneing with at least one of my friends. and i feel so emotionally shot from everything. like i love being a good friend and listening to everyone elses annoyances and problems and shit but it just so happens that a fuck of alot of ppl have dumped their loads on me today and all at once i cant handle it. i got so stressed out first period that i went to the bathroom and threw up. and some of u r most likely confused and have no idea whts going on. but this journal is for my purposes so i really dont give a shit if this entry makes sense to u or not no1 told u to read it. like idk. the only ppl who asked me hey meg how are you is hale and james z. caz every1 is too busy being like well meg im gunna use u to dump my bitching on to emotionally fuck u up on top of everything else, but no i dont give a shit how u r. im worried hardcore about anthony and crissie. thts something every1 who cares knows at least a lil bit about so i can mention it in here. and dont think u cant come to me with shit nemore, just that this one day every1 bitched at me. and i cant take it nemore. i went through the whole day feeling numb. i had no feelings. u coulda came up to me and sed meg ur a fat bitch and no1 likes u and i wouldve just shrugged. idk why i was like that sorry if ne1 thought i was disconnected or mad. then i got home and was like ahhhhhhhh. so please no more drama tonite. i no ur got ur problems and just hafta tell them to sum1 but tonite not me. i cant deal nemore. oh and u no wht i was thinking? to those ppl who r mad at me and wont fuckin tell me why, im not gunna sit here worrying about it nemore or trying to sit here and analyze it caz at this point i really dont give a fuck u can talk to me wen u feel like acting older than 10. its not worth it. on a brighter note im seeing shrek 2 tomorrow with paulina carol jess laura and liz. tht shud b a blast. its supposed to b hilaaaaarious.
carols on the fone g2g

meg

i no everything sucks ya but this will b the last time u hear me complain

Wed, 26 May 2004 23:54:41 GMT

i am updating. even tho i have nothing really to say. i went to hales house today. tht was awesome i love him. every1 was on the balicki field trip. i ran into ari at forest hills and he told me he's gettin suspended for being in the grls bathroom playing hackie sack. i thot tht was hilarious. ari ur my hero. theres shit going on with anthony and crizznazz, not being them together like probs in their relationship its other shit, and im worried like fucking whoa. too personal to write about here im having a chat with anthony tomorrow. i love u both. james zozula is my complaining buddy. so u all can kiss my ass. ha. mike sed the new piebald cd rocks his butt so now i want it. and the end of november cd. i was sooooo hyper in skool today. i think hale asked me if i was on crack. actually alot of ppl asked me wht i was on. but i wasnt on nething. i couldnt sit still and kept on giggling. silly meg. every1 and their mom had our lunch today. made me smile like a lil skool grl. we reminisced about the time regina wouldnt get off my roof, and had a seizure on my street and the old lady stopped her car to c if she was ok, wen she came on the bus with no shoes covered head to toe in mud, wen i threw her into a parked car (best one), wen we played the agent game in my casa. fucking hilariousness if u no wht im talking about. i miss tht one section of time wen me carol jess liz amanda jackie faith regina and laura were all bffls no fights. those were fuckin good times. now is still awesome but it was great wen tht was going on. and i miss liz's house. im so glad crew is like basically over. there r scandals going on rite now. some of it is uhm interesting, lol steph, and other of it not happy. ok im soooo rambling. my cd player broke. i cried, well on the inside, and it took me forever to finally fix this one part of it and i was gettin so frusterated, and then realized tht i was a dumbass once agen the other part was broken the whole time. wow meg rnt u the brightest crayon in the box. tht quote reminds me of vads. o vads carol and jess we gotta do the hobo thing. haha. i miss maria swanky. i think she may have gotten mad at me somewhere in the past month or so but idk wht i couldve done. maryellen still isnt really talking to me, which i dont understand since she claims shes not mad and she has company at discos now henry goes and i think annie so i dont c wht the problem is. unless once agen i did something wrong and dont realize it. hales going away this weekend, and my parents the next week (sorry guys no keg my sisters gunna b home). yup. i just found out im gunna b away a month during the summer. uh. i dont wanna b away from every1 that long. 2 last weeks in july and 2 last weeks in august. i hate the weather its killing me. i g2g my sis needs the comp
i love u all b happy smile yay,
meg

uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh

Tue, 25 May 2004 00:48:37 GMT

i was just in the shower and thinking about what my favorite song is. and i couldnt come up with one. so im gunna make a list in no specific order
GOLDEN SLUMBERS- BEATLES
crash into me-dmb
yellow ledbetter-pearl jam
sic transit gloria glory fades-brand new
70 times 70-brand new
best of me-starting line
someone like you-van morrison
cute without the e-taking back sunday
the scientist-coldplay
kissing you-des ree
i shall believe-sheryl crow
wonderwall-oasis
everything sucks-rbf
selah-lauren hill
black-pearl jam
name-goo goo dolls
black balloon-goo goo dolls
motorcycle drive by-third eye blind
layla-eric clapton
carolina-james taylor
under the bridge-rhcp
keasby nights-catch22
anything on the new blink182 cd, minus the techno shit
blink182-staying together for the kids

i think i have an ear infection, or at least a small ear ache. paulina told me to take my earrings out i was like no paulina an inside ear infection. she never had one before. lucky bitch. i got really pissed off at a certain person at lunch today. ugh. im over it now tho, i gess. every1 was spazzin over semi pictures all day. ah. i almost got my dots game with frizzie confiscated by morrison. who the fuck confiscates a game of dots. pathetic. me and jackie like literally cried laughing after skool. i sweat tht grl to pieces. i got about 10 minutes of sleep last nite so im exhausted. ah too tired to think.

<3 u, meggo

ps- I LOVE HALE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after all you're my Wonderwall

Sun, 23 May 2004 21:06:42 GMT

hola. this weekend was ill. friday was semi. awesome time. then betsy met us and we went to fridays then home, then betsy slept over, then the next day i hung out with betsy wen she finally woke up at like 12:30, then steph came over and we walked to henrys and drank on the way, got there totally trashed, that was alot of fun. i love alcohol. im such a mess. laura was supposed to meet us there but didnt show up caz her dad is gay. i feel bad caz she wanted to c darian b4 he leaves. then the cops came and were like no stop. so we only saw the jopos and some of attaboy. me and steph were so gone. then we like walked somewhere and then walked to mikes, we ended up on his comfy leather sofa and i fell asleep for the ill minute. i was gunna go to the pull out sofa but i would have never gotten up and ended up sleeping over. then i went home and talked to hale for the ill minute. then today i took kerry shopping. i spent around 400 dollars on the 2 of us. eek. im crazy. then we came home and i watched romeo and juliet, twice. now im sittin here online listenin to red hot chili peppers greatest hits which i also bought today. yay

<3love, Meg

song:
scar tissue tht i wish u saw sarcastic mr know it all close ur eyes and ill kiss u caz w the birds i'll share w the birds i'll share this lonely view and w the birds i'll share w the birds i'll share this lonely view push me up against the wall young kentucky grl in a push up bra fallin all over myself to lick ur heart and taste ur health caz w the birds i'll share w the birds i'll share this lonely view

i say theres got to b sum good reason for ur lil black backpack up smack turnaround hes on his back

Thu, 20 May 2004 23:46:48 GMT

hola. whts up? i no this entry will b pointless caz i have nothing to write.

ryan collins: first slow song im dancing with cahill

*whole class talking about jason gardino*
ryan: dude tht kid asked me to the semi
(FUCKING HILARIOUS if u no who both of them r)

today i took the bus home with faith and henken. then i went and got my nails done. the ppl rememberred my name and shit and didnt even ask me wht i wanted just did it caz i used to b a regular there wen i went thru my nail phase. then about 4 minutes of being home faith called me. and we talked for the ill minute yo. im proud of myself caz ive rekindled with ppl i lost contact to for awhile and ive stopped being a bad friend. yup. auntie carol and beth sent me 50 dollars in the mail. woowoo. tomorrows semi. it better b fun and nobody cause ne drama after all the fuss. thts all i hafta say

:) megalina

dont b so quick to walk away dance with me i wanna rock your body

Thu, 20 May 2004 01:05:40 GMT

heyheyhey. i wrote the ill long entry earlier but in typical meg fashion my comp froze and it died. my day was goodful. i had mcas, which r pointless and once agen hurt my ass, then physics ryan just played games on the comp and me and frizz started the ultimate game of dots its awesome. then i had a math test which was actually easy, then i had history and we watched a movie, then english she gave us a study, then last period another movie. so my day was just fun and games. then i went to hales house which is always yay. hehe. :). i just got off a 2 hour fone convo with liz. it fixed things. crews ending and shes gunna b mine agen. haha tht sounds so wrong and gay but u no wht i dont care. so yesterday bets called me and was like wht r doing friday nite im gunna b in boston and dont wanna b stuck in a hotel with my parents i wanna sleep over. so shes gunna meet all of us after semi and come out to after activities with us and shit and then sleep over and then saturday is the bta/attaboy/jopos show im going in the company of laura, and then lauras sleeping over. yupyup. whoever is doing the gay comments in zula's profile is really scaring me caz they no like where i went to skool and my family members's names. like wht the hell. im giving ben and annie tickets to the red sox game for friday. ben was really happy. i love making ppl happy. it gives me a natural high. then in late june stephs taking me to canadia, and ive never been outta the country and i no its not that exciting but u no wht at least its something. and me and steph have great times. then on the way down her rents r gunna drop us at betsy's and we're gunna stay in VT for a lil bit. thts gunna b partaying good times. if tht all works out like we hoped. we cant go there till after june 25 tho caz thts wen her boyfriend goes to jail. yup. wen u search megan torpey on yahoo u get a pic of children building a snow man. wen u search meg torpey u dont get nething. wonderful. well i gotta go bitch to my mom now TtyL

<3 meg peg kep leg beg egg

http://grrrr.entensity.net/051804/media/media.php?media=fits.wmv i discovered this in mikey T's profile and it made me lmao so yeah.

song in megs head caz hale was talking about boy bands:
lying in ur arms so close together didnt no just wht i had now i toss and turn caz im without u how im missin u so bad where was my head where was my heart now i cry alone in the dark i lie awake i drive myself crazy drive myself crazy thinking of u made a mistake wen i let u go baby i drive myself crazy wanting u the way that i do wanting u the way that i do i was just a fool i couldnt c it just how good u were to me u confessed ur love undying devotion i confessed my need to b free and now im left with all this pain ive only got myself to blame yeah i lie awake i drive myself crazy drive myself crazy thinkin of u made a mistake let u go baby i drive myself crazy loving u the way tht i do lovin u the way that i do

im ur venus im ur fire ur desire

Wed, 19 May 2004 01:11:21 GMT

~ i am currently eatting these. grape flavored. i love them. like i could eat them for the rest of my life. wonder if i actually did that if i would die from like not enuff minerals or protein or some health crap. on june 3rd kerry hasta go to a birthday party in jp so im coming home mad early, gettin her, bussing to jp, waiting for 2 hours and nick fountain u r joining me whether u like it or not, then picking her up at 5:30 and bussing home. idk why but i think thts really cute. idk i dont do nething with kerry thts outside of like family crap which is supposed since shes 5 but shes the best kid in the world and im her godmother i shud take her places. anywho. so mcas started today. talk about a pain in the ass. literally. sittin there tht long hurts. im talking to roarty and laura in the same convo caz they r both on her sn but they cant c wht each other r writing haha. like whoa hilarious. i feel sticky! im too hyper to write nemore so BYE

you know you love me, <3 eGGo0O0o0O0o0O0o0o

(PS- lol jess and cml)

i think about u all the time, but i dont need the same, its lonely where u r, come back down

Tue, 18 May 2004 00:04:34 GMT

heyheyhey. wht up blurtay? not much here. my head hurts! wht else is new tho really. u'ld think tht 3 ibuprofen would help. nope. so today was slightly uneventful in skool. latin test kicked crissie and my asses all the way to next week. and during 6th me steph and lauren put tampons in nick fountain and mike koltons bags where their pens go. hilarious. after skool i chillaxed with henry. he got krispy kremes. i cant deal with them i dont like how they taste and every1 calls me insane but u no wht they r yucky. so there. yeah so me and henken bonded. then i took commuter rail home with hale. i just realized i have nothing to write. carol mike and paulina were all absent. the nerve. haha. no guys get better. and a big shout out to mike thomas dont b so emo ur the best thing ever and if u leave my dad will b so much less unlaughable. i no its easier sed than done. if u need my help dude yup im hurr, not tht im doing too great either but yer its the thought tht counts. =). im talking to vads!!! i missed her so it makes me yay. nick fountain pen wants me to c mean grls with him. haha. well i must b bouncin off this. tootals :)

<3 Meg!!!!

song in eggos head:
well its been building up inside of me for idk how long idk y but i keep thinkin sumthings bound to go wrong then she looks in my eyes and makes me realize and she says dont worry baby dont worry baby everything will turn out alrite

there is nothing i could say, that i haven't thought before

Mon, 17 May 2004 00:55:08 GMT

uhm like whoa i havent written in this for awhile. hmmm how about a recap: on monday i went to h&m with steph jackie fizz and ben. and then nick furgason popped outta nowhere. so him me steph and ben went to wendys across the street, and i was gunna go to the pru to meet hale to take commuter rail home and nick got off with me and we ended up hanging out. he actually was really nice and i dont hate him nemore. then i took commuter rail home with mr mcanulty and didnt feel good, then got a fever and such and stayed home tuesday and mike woke me up at like 8 and called to c if i wanted to skip with him and joe i was like uhm im sick and in bed. so i did a shitload of work and cleaned my room and boring crap. then on wednesday i went to hales house. :). then thursday me and laura went to dunkies for collattas and hung out for a lil bit tht was awesome i love laura with all my heart. and then friday i went to hales which was yay and then i was gunna do something with liz jess and carol but tht got fucked, then tricia broke her leg so i had to stay home and babysit the kiddies. then saturday me and steph went to blockbuster, and they didnt have grl with a pearl earring like we wanted and we wanted to cry lol steph so my mom randomly like popped outta no where in cvs and just gave us money to buy it. then we walked bak to her house and jackie came and i cooked them stuff and we watched it and then mike ben and faith came and were like this movie is crap but me and steph were like orgasmic. then henry came and we went in the hot tub and filmed this techno tape and well u had to b there it was an ill time tho. and i gess henry didnt think we'ld b going online and made his away message "techno party... save me" and well if he didnt wanna b there then he shouldnt have come. then zac grace mellen tedescho james rodo ari and mike dolan showed up randomly. then i went home. today was a gay day as sundays tend to b. went to church, watched a movie with my mom caz im too cool, homework. steph lent me the first gossip grls im almost done with it. we're going to vermont in juneish. tht shud b an ill time. semi friday woowoo. i hate wen ppl get mad at THE gayest shit, like small insignificant shit and then pretend like they rnt mad. some of u no wht im talking about. fucking gay. i need a hug. good bye

love, meg to the peg

-i would usually write the song thts in my head down hurr but i have wonderwall in my head and i no ur all sick of me singing it 24/7 so i wont burden u

Tue, 11 May 2004 22:26:51 GMT

x // BASICS
x // name : meg!
x // age : 16
x // bday : april 7
x // location: westie
x // FEATURES
x // nationality : irish and other stuff
x // height : 5'2ish
x // hair color : a fuck
x // eye color : blue
x // shoe size : 6ish
x // HAVE YOU EVER...
x // fell in love : yes
x // kissed someone: yes
x // cried for someone: yes
x // lied : yes
x // drove a car: yes
x // laughed so hard you had to pee : yes
x // yelled at someone for something: yes
x // stayed up all night : yes
x // got sick : yes
x // DO YOU...
x // smoke : no
x // drink : yes
x // do drugs : no, unless u go by the whole "alcohol is a drug" thing
x // laugh a lot : yes
x // drive : no
x // get tans : yes
x // talk on da phone : yes but i suck at it usually
x // cook : if i wanna eat something...
x // fall in love easily: no
x // listen to yourself or your friends : yes
x // sing and dance : yes
x // WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
x //love : giddy yay
x // long distance relationships: i couldnt b in one ild b too sad all the time
x // teenager smoking : do w/e u want
x // abusing : thts a broad topic.
x // sneaking out : ive had the best times sneaking out esp with liz and la
x // car accidents : wtf do u mean wht do i think about them? they suck i gess...
x // mistakes : every1 makes them
x // playas : no
x // online dating : def not
x // school : i love my friends in skool but besides tht it sucks
x // margaritas: yum!
x // CHOOSE
x // sun or rain : rain as long as its warm
x // puppies or kittens : puppies
x // soda or ice cream : soda
x // vanilla or chocolate : vanilla
x // phone or internet : internet
x // slippers or shoez : i dont own slippers
x // summer or winter : summer
x // FAVORITES
x // food : idk
x // car : as long as it drives i dont give a fuck
x // animal : penguin
x // things to do : i love being with ppl i heart the best
x // tv show : south park, friends, degrassi
x // drink : diet coke
x // FRIENDS
x // coolest : u all rock my ass
x // funniest : jackie
x // lamest : none of u
x // smartest: monica
x // closest: hale, liz, laura, jess, steph, carol, jackie, vads, paulina, fizz
x // dumbest : paulina has her moments haha
x // weirdest : jackie
x // nicest: james zozula, shelly
x // meanest : me
x // craziest : betsy and jackie
x // loudest : stephanie wen she sings haha
x // flirtiest : betsy
x // friendliest : shelly
x // strongest : laura, crissies pretty strong actually
x // rudest : none of u r really rude. prolly anthony
x // cutest : ur all cuties
x// personality wise: hard question
x // looks wise: laura, grace, stephanie
x // laziest : laura
x // skinniest : jessica
x // buffest : kfjslk;fjl;ska!
x // most shy : depends on the sit
x // most trustworthy : henry
x // most talented : mike thomas
x // best personality: u all have kick ass personalities
x // best looking : hale for guys obviously, laura for grls
x // best dressed : liz
x // best friend : i have more than one best friend and it would b hard to chose
x // I...
x // love : hale
x // hate : u
x // wish : i felt unsick
x // dream : rarely
x // hope : bls burns down
x // believe : in miracles u sexy thang. haha
x // hear : monsters inc
x // touch : my keyboard
x // smell : dinner
x // sleep : very little
x // feel : sick
x // know : everything always works out in the end
x // lost : my temper
x // cry : too much
x // smile : alot
x // laugh : alot
x // will : try to be happy all the time
x // remember : sixie year.

why cant i feel anything from anyone who isnt u

Sat, 08 May 2004 13:00:39 GMT

it is sincerly too early for me to b awake. considering i tired i was last nite. but i am. at least i slept for a change. :). im wicked happy today. yesterday was illmatic. i went downtown to newbury with jess and carol. i bought this heart belt thing thts really not a belt since it does not help in the least to keep ur pants up but i buy pants tht fit so i dont usually wear belts. hurr it is:http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/shopping/product/detailmain.jsp?itemID=3843&itemType=PRODUCT&iMainCat=77&iSubCat=79&iProductID=3843

yup yup. then i bought black and white polka dot shoes. i was excited. and i bought my mom a mothers day gift too. and jess bought a brunettes have more fun shirt. hellz yeah. then we went to bls to wait for my mom, it took her like an hour to get there but she did and hale was working and he kept on coming out to visit. yupyup. then we went to university house of pizza across the street from the mfa and then carol had to go home so i walked them to ruggles and bak to bls and by the time i got there hale was outta work and we went to the red sox game. mucho fun like whoa. yay. then his dad drove us home. then i came online and went to bed. yupyupyup. today im supposed to go to vads's. but i need sum1 who lives around here to go so i get a ride there and bak, and i heard rumor tht grace isnt going or something. so i dont no. i really wanna tho and i feel bad caz i always bail on veronica. and will u tell all ur friends uve got ur gun to my head this all was only wishful thinking. tbs. yupyup. i really wanna do something with laura and liz. like really bad i miss them so much. but they prolly have crew and softball. o btw.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAMES ZOZULA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay

i want these: http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/shopping/product/detailmain.jsp?itemID=2606&itemType=PRODUCT&iMainCat=121&iSubCat=125&iProductID=2606

yer so im off this tootals

i love u all--------------------------eggo waffle!

she dreamed in color she dreamed in red cant find a betterman

Thu, 06 May 2004 22:15:37 GMT

like whoa mister livejournal what is up?

i had a good day. first period histtory i did nothing, second period the class was working on a proj i already finished so i had a study, then doctor carroll was absent so i had a study, then band me and steph bitched about the eweness of the world around us and rhodies. lmao steph, then mr power was absent and i talked to tim prata and kicked adrians ass in tic tac toe, then latin we had a lil quiz tht wasnt too bad and boring class i just day dreamt, and then physics ms morrison wanted the class to b a democracy and govern ourselves, so we nominated adam as our dictator and we all agreed to have open book open notebook calculator test where u can talk to ne1 in the room at ne time, like a group test cept without the clique-ishness of it all. shes such a retard. then i goodbyed with mister mcanulty, and me joe fizz and pickles hopped on the train, we lost joe and faith wanted to go to park street so me and pickles got off, met vads at wendys, then went to restoration hardware to get vads's mom a present. it was hilarious she goes up to pay and says to the guy "if u were a mom would u like this?" hahah. then we met maryellen and grace on newbury and went into urban outfitters and all those expensive trendy places im gunna blow so much money off at tomorrow with jessica and carol, if im even going with them i need to talk to hale about tomorrow caz we're going to a red sox game. but neway then i had a feelin i shud get home, and on hte commuter rail my mom called and was like I NEED U HOME, im so miss cleo, cept not fake. and there was a baby in front of me and pickels tht kept on making the cutest funniest noises we were dying. and i fell down the commuter rail stairs caz i just rock ur world that much. third time i tripped today. and im wearing sneakers. go figure. so yer anthony and crissie turned out to b on the same commuter rail (THEY ARE EVERYWHERE I SWEAR TO GOD) and me and anthony walked home and i would just like to say tht no1 shud b talkin shit bout anthony at all caz nothing going on rite now is his fault. yeah. so then i got home and the guy with the baby on the train called my house and im such a smarty i left my cell fone on the commuter rail and he called to ask wht i wanted to do with it, so my moms going to go pick it up in needham now. haha. but i wont get it till she gets home at like 10 so if i dont call u or text u bak have no fears im not pissed off or nething. but what a nice dude. yeah. my moms worse. o btw shout out to pickles dont b low i heart u like luigi hearts italian candy. lmao. my tummy hurts :(:( o wow i just figured out how to add pictures to livejournal entries i tried to figure tht out for so long. hahah im a tard. mikes gettin a trolly from his dad for semi. like whoa. pat and joanne r taking it with us, how random is that? ha. well newho speaking of dads i gotta call and make him bring home money. so yer tootals :)

-------------E to the double G to the Oo0o0o0o

song in mah head:

get into the groove boy uve got to prove ur love to me yeah get up on ur feet yeah step to the beat boy wht will it be music can b such a revelation dancing around u feel the sweet sensation we mite b lovers in the rhythms right i hope this feeling never ends tonite only wen im dancing can i feel this free at nite i lock the doots where no1 else can see im tired of dancing here all by myself tonite i wanna dance with sum1 else get into the groove boy uve got to prove ur love to me yeah get up on ur feet yeah step to the beat boy what will it be

if i could find u now things would get better we could leave this town and run forever

Wed, 05 May 2004 23:31:13 GMT

omg u have got to be kidding me i just wrote a huge entry and it got deleted. i never fuckin learn. okay im gunna do this blurty in maryellen list style so yeah.

ok so my day was okay, skool was boring and long as usual, went to hales house and tht was the bomb diggity... where the hell did i get bomb diggity from? mayb catdog..... neway yeah tht was awesome and nice and all tht good loving stuff
so then on my way home i saw a grl with caitlin sheehans bakpak and i was like naw caitlin sheehan wouldnt come into my town, then i saw pickles's read hair and it was her sheehan crissie and anthony. i run into them 2 everywhere i swear. yesterday i went semi dress shopping with crissie, she tried on the most gorgeous dress but it costed the ill dollar, like over 300. but yeah i walked them to the bowling alley and then on homeward
i am going to kill miss morrison. thats it its on.
i rebonded with lizzle today and tht was good caz like we were iffy the past week or so towards each other and shit
im really stressed out and worried because well i have a feeling im gunna do bad this report card coming up and usually my parents tend to care more towards the end of the year. and the wireless bill came today but idk wen they r gunna open it so ne second i could get my ass kicked caz i made soooo many calls and sent five times the amount of texts than i usually do. esp during april vaykay wen i was away for a lil, and hale was away, and then i didnt have aim so no1 could get in contact with me since im not a fone person.
but the main reason im worried is caz my mom just told me today tht shes been having sharp pains in her chest around her heart for two weeks, and her lower leg and feet r all blown up from "retained water" and w/e arm u get pains in wen u get a heartattack, shes gettin pains in. i tried to convince her to go to a doctor or something but she wont. just like she wont get her skin cancer outta her leg and shes had it since jacks been born. and no matter how much i yell at her she wont. i was screamin at her about how shes gunna leave me with 3 little kids to raise and im gunan hafta drop out and she goes "oh well ur a better mother to them than i am as it is" i was like dude i dont wanna b a 16 year old mom to kids tht rnt even my own!!!!! u have gotta b fuckin kidding me. she was just laughing her ass off tht i was gunna end up raising her kids for her i was like u slut its not funny!!!! im so worried im nauseous. haha first time ive ever spelt tht word right first try go meg. hopefully nothing will happen caz like nothing i worry about ends up something to worry about and it all ends up fine, its wen i dont worry tht i no im gunna get bitten in the ass unexpectedly. cept for obvious stuff like the fone bill. ugh

ok well im out like janets boob

------<3 meg to the peg <3-------

song in megs head:

You've got your ball you've got your chain tied to me tight tie me up again who's got their claws in you my friend Into your heart I'll beat again Sweet like candy to my soul Sweet you rock and sweet you roll Lost for you I'm so lost for you You come crash into me And I come into you I come into you In a boys dream In a boys dream Touch your lips just so I know In your eyes, love, it glows so I'm bare boned and crazy for you When you come crash into me, baby And I come into you In a boys dream In a boys dream If I've gone overboard Then I'm begging you to forgive me in my haste When I'm holding you girl so close to me Oh and you come crash into me, baby
And I come into you Hike up your skirt a little more and show the world to me Hike up your skirt a little more and show your world to me In a boys dream.. In a boys dream Oh I watch you there through the window
And I stare at you You wear nothing but you wear it so well tied up and twisted the way i'd like to be For you, for me, come crash into me

fill this out as a comment and i'll love u till i die

Tue, 04 May 2004 22:46:20 GMT

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/ weaker/ or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Would you ever want to kiss me?
21. Have you ever wanted to ask me out?
22. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you?

thinger i stole from sheila

Tue, 04 May 2004 22:21:24 GMT

bold which one describes u 01. I am perfectly content to sit by myself for hours listening to the same songs over and over again.
02. I'm a loud obnoxious son of a bitch.
03. I would love to do country line dancing. [it can be a good time]
04. I don't really care about...anything.
05. I can completely lose myself in a song.
06. Driving aimlessly while blasting music is therapeutic.
05. I love fall.
06. I hate turtleneck sweaters with a passion.
07. My friends mean the world to me.
08. I also hate when people TypE LyKe D1s.
09. I only get 3-4 hours of sleep a night or less
10. I believe that even if they work, long distance relationships still suck.
11. Fuck computers.
12. I don't like people
13. I like shopping for underwear.
14. I don't like studying.
15. After high school I'm going to Law school.
16. Sometimes I feel like passing out in the middle of the floor for no reason.
17. I want to go to Europe.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I'm vegetarian.
20. I sometimes like to watch the rain and think.
21. I like pop music.
22. Johnny Depp is really hot.
23. Groups of the same kind of people make me sick.
24. I can type rather fast.
25. I wish I could sleep better.
26. I wish love was like a movie
27. I'm not a huge fan of the holidays.
28. Irish people make me sick after reading "angelas ashes".
29. I want to win the lottery one day.
30. I like the Starting Line.
31. I trust people way too easily.
32. I don't have a job.
33. I dont like a lot of people
34. I say fuck to charities.
35. I know a lot of people, but only have a few close friends.
36. I'm easy to get along with
37. I'm a very aggressive person.
38. I like having "beauty nights" with my friends.
39. I need to find something I'm talented in and stick to it.
40. I'm very insecure, even though I don't show it.
41. I really enjoy thoughtful gifts, even if they cost nothing.
42. I never want to live in Australia.
43. I'm too agressive.
44. I love flavored lipgloss
45. Sometimes words can actually hurt me more than sticks and stones.
46. The movie honey makes me sick.
47. I like holding hands more than anything.
48. I have no life.
49. Sometimes, I like spending time alone.
50. I'm not a big fan of relationships.
51. It needs to be quiet and dark for me to fall asleep.
52. I miss being kissed.
53. I love to find money in my coat pockets.
54. In the winter i never want to leave my house.
55. I wish I was good with directions.
56. I'm pretty good with forgetting about things.
57. I like to read childrens stories.
58. I dye/cut my hair way too much.
59. Emotional neediness scares the crap out of me.
60. Hearing people say they miss me, when I thought they didn't care, makes me smile.
61. I sometimes wish I was black.
62. One of my favorite movies is Life as a House.
63. I'm very loud.
64. I feel like something's missing, even though I'm pretty content with my life right now.
65. My hair has a mind of it's own, and that mind is a paranoid schizophrenic.
66. I think meat is gross!
67. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. Well I try not to...
68. I don't like having a boyfriend.
69. the song 'here is gone' by the goo goo dolls is one of my favorite songs. [well, not favorite, but i do like it.]
70. I've never been in love.
71. I get really excited about girls/boys who play acoustic guitar.
72. I have never seen E.T..
73. I am drawn to intellect and humor.
74. I want my hair to be long but I can never grow it out.
75. I hate when people do things just to look important.
76. I love the game twister.
77. I'm not old-fashioned.
78. I love waking up next to someone.
79. I'm not picky about anything.
80. I like acting like a kid.
81. I don't understand why everyone feels the need to be obsessed with star shaped things
82. Music plays a big part in my life.
83. I hate the word "emo"
84. I want silky smooth skin.
85. I love Oprah.
86. Sometimes I think to myself: Wow. People are really f***ing stupid.
87. Stupid people annoy me.
88. I may sound sarcastic but I really am serious
89. I can forgive and forget.
90. I like being mean to people I don't know.
91. I can't stand ignorance.
92. Really tall people scare me.
93. I hate snow.
94. I love to laugh.
95. I don't listen to people that much.
96. I HATE hello kitty shit.
98. I think people throw the word love around too much.
99. I am way too outgoing.
100. I *hate* when people always have to sound smart.

ban the tube top tonite!

Mon, 03 May 2004 23:44:04 GMT

hey skanks. whts up? not mucho hurr. today was good. boring average day, met up with crissie and anthony downtown (anthony u owe me money hoe) and we chillaxed tht was fun. its gross and im wet and cold. tear. then i took the commuter rail home with mister mcanulty. tht was fun. red sox game friday. woohoo. hahah this morning in band jackie and steph were playing my heart will go on and i dont wanna wait on the friggin flutes and singing to it so loud it was hilarious they were trying their absolute hardest to embarrass me haha. gave me so much stress but in a funny way. i love them to death. hello there the angel from my nightmare. im listening to the new blink182 cd. yupyupyup good stuff. i cant wait for summer. even tho i have a feeling some pretty gay shit is gunna happen. jackie knows wht im talking about. betsys gunna live in boston for the summer im so glad and every1 will b done with crew and my moms workin so i can like do w/e i want everyday, and ill c jen alot since she can drive now. its so scary to think we're gunna b the second oldest ppl in the building next year. eek. how the fuck did i get this old. im still five i swear to god. i ahte wen ppl leave bad hate comments in ppls journals like james and kerins. pissing the fuck outta me leave ur fuckin name and stop being pussys. grr!!! btw happy birthday to james mealey. i just watched this home video of sean doing a hardcore version of wht if god was one of us and he has this like stuffed tomato thing i cant explain it on his head and put his legs under him so he looked like a midget its fuckin hilarious i love tht kid. u had to b there. or c the video. i think maryellen is wicked pissed at me. ugh. i cant please everyone at once im sorry! im so wicked confused at whether crissie and anthony officially go out. like they act like they do and its says antonio on her pf so im gessing but they havent officialized it or nething. aight i have nothing else to say tootals

<3 meg to tha peg (MARYELLEN I LOVE U DONT HATE ME)

song currently in meg's head:
with all of this i no now everything inside of my head it all just goes to show how nothin i no changes me at all agen i wait for this to change instead to tear the world in 2 another night with her but im always wanting u. use me holly come on and use me, we know where we go, use me holly come on and use me we go where we no. with all of this i feel now everything inside of my heart it all just seems to b how nothin i feel pulls at me at all agen i wait for this to pull apart to break my time in two another nite with her but im always wanting use me Holly come on and use me we no where we go use me holly come on and use me we go where we kno she's all i need she's all i dream she's all im always wantin she's all i need she's all i dream she's all: im always wanting u yeah im always wantin u im always wanting u
<<<<blink182 is bitchin.

once there was a way to get back homeward

Sun, 02 May 2004 22:55:56 GMT

like whoa. im mostly better now. still a LITTLE down on the inside but its all good. like yesterday was a huge fuck of a day and i had a mental breakdown. sorry to who ever called and i told i didnt wanna talk to them its not nething personal. so yea like i was supposed to c mean grls with mike steph carol liz laura jackie jess fizz rodo mellen and annie and all morning i was trying to shop and my fone kept on ringing about plans and ppl bitchin at me i got aggrivated then like carol got the times wrong and shit and i just ended up gettin too upset and frusterated to go and ended up doing shit all day i didnt wanna leave the casa. then i got upset with hale, not mad like sad. idk it was a confused mess of meg and its all good now. im not sad nemore at all he made me better. (o btw throwing out a big thanks james zozula). i hafta call liz bak but i mean not like shes jumped to call me for the past 2 weeks so im not gunna rush to call her. i burnt the top of my mouth on tea. so this morning my eyes were still swollen from yesterday so my mom didnt make me go to church so tht was good. then hale called and we went to starbucks and his casa for a couple of hours. tht was fun :). then i went to visit ppl at the bowling ally and fizz pickles crissie and annie were there. crissie was with alex polus i thot tht was random i never like connected them. music night was friday. i bonded with joe poles hes such a good kid. then afterwards me hale his parents and andrey went to bertuccis. i didnt feel good and didnt eat nething. my dad just informed me hes friends with the manager of the yankees. random. u no the beginning of number 8 on keasby nights by catch22? hale can play tht how awesome is that? i bought so much clothes yesterday morning. i spent 200 dollars at american eagle alone. i also bought jewelry to go with my semi dress. i really like wht uve done to me i cant really explain it im so into u. lyrics. i wish hale would come online. and laura. i feel the need for some laura i miss her like a mofo. u no whts the most annoying thing tht me and vads r talkin bout? avrils new song. well all her songs r fuckin annoying and gay but this one like the words of it just shut up to quote veronica "GO BACK UP TO UPPER CANADA MANNN". hate for avril reminds me of gracie H. im rambling about stuff no1 gives a shit about so im gunna stop. byers

<3 eggo

song playing in megs head:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am